I opened a drawer this morning to clear it out. What I
pulled out are pieces of my heart, parts I cant put back, cracks I smothered as
I tried to “just deal”. Which is ironically not dealing. So while the notebook
and tiny tapes lay as silent reminders of what was, I sigh.
And in among the pictures and memories, I found a folded
paper full of tiny written words. To read caught my heart, choked my breath. It
is called “Waiting. Watching: 24-7-365”. I wanted to share it with you all.
So this guy
comes up to me and says,
“What’s the
vision? What’s the big idea?”
I open my
mouth and the words come out like this…
The vision?
The vision
is JESUS: obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.
The vision
is an army of young people.
You see
bones? I see an army.
And they are
free from materialism – they laugh at 9-5 little prisons.
They could
eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday. They wouldn’t even notice.
They know
the meaning of the Matrix, the way the West was won.
They are
mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations, they need no passport.
People write
their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence.
They are
free, yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.
What is the
vision? The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.
It makes the
children laugh and adults angry.
It gave up
the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars.
It scorns
the good and strains for the best.
It is
dangerously pure.
Light
flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation.
It loves
people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games.
This is an
army that will lay down its life for the cause.
A million
times a day its soldiers choose to loose that they might one day win the great…
“well done”
of faithful sons and daughters.
Such heroes
are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night.
They don’t
need fame from names.
Instead they
grin quietly upwards
And hear the
crowds chanting again and again: “COME ON!”
And this is
the sound of the underground,
The whisper
of history in the making,
Foundations
shaking,
Revolutionaries
dreaming once again.
Mystery is
scheming in whispers, conspiracy is breathing…
This is the
sound of the underground
And the army
is discipl(in)ed – young people who beat their bodies into submission.
Every
soldier could take a bullet for his comrade at arms.
The tattoo
on their back boasts “For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.”
Sacrifice
fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes.
Winners.
Martyrs. Who
can stop them?
Can hormones
hold them back?
Can failure
succeed?
Can fear
scare them or death kill them?
And the
generation prays like a dying man with groans beyond talking, with warrior
cries, silphuric tears and great barrow loads of laughter!
Whatever it
takes they will give:
Breaking the
rules,
Shaking
mediocrity from its cozy little hide,
Laying down
their rights and their precious little wrongs,
Laughing at
labels, fasting essentials.
The
advertisers cannot hold them.
Peer-pressure
is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel
cries.
They are
incredibly cool, dangerously attractive inside.
On the
outside?
They hardly
care!
They wear
clothes like costumes: to communicate and celebrate, but never to hide.
Would they
surrender their image or their popularity?
They would
lay down their very lives,
Swap seats
with the man on death row,
Guilty as
hell: a throne for an electric chair.
With blood
and sweat and many tears,
With
sleepless nights and fruitless days,
They pray is
if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.
Their DNA
chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.) their subconscious sings.
They had a
blood transfusion with Jesus.
Their words
make demons scream in shopping centers.
Don’t you
hear them coming?
Herald the
weirdos!
Summon the
losers and the freaks.
Here come
the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes!
They walk
tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow,
Mountains
are dwarfed by these children of another dimension.
Their
prayers summon the Hound of Heaven
And invoke
the ancient dream of Eden.
And this
vision will be.
It will come
to pass;
It will come
easily;
It will come
soon.
How do I
know?
Because this
is the longing of creation itself,
The groaning
of the Spirit, the very dream of God.
My tomorrow
is His today.
My distant
hope is His 3-D.
And my
feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding,
bone-shaking great “Amen!” from countless angels,
And hero’s
of the faith, from Christ himself.
And He is
the original dreamer,
The ultimate
winner.
Guaranteed.
For that vision I will arm myself. For that I will get my
ass in gear. Let it be. How could I ever have forgotten?
Is this the day I die? Or is this the day I live? The space
between matters not.